It has been a long time since I last update my blog ... Today there is a sudden urge to do it :) ever since the last time I update many things that changes my life have happened. I have already enlisted into national service for almost 8 months .... A good friend Rizuan is going to ORD next week ... So happy for him to regain his freedom all the best in your utter endeavor Wan!. Luckily I have a great partner and bro supporting me in the same vocation Thank you Rahman for going through thick and thin ... 1 year plus more !!! Our junior coming in let's teach him well tgt ... That's for my NS life for now. As for my life ... A few goals in mind but don't know where to begin and where will I end in the future ? 1) a full time job and part time uni when I ORD? 2) what do I want to study in? Be a teacher ? (NIE) Banker ? Back to customer service ? Human resource sector ? 3) time to start and take my driving licenses ? I don't have much time to dwell with do I ? I'm like counting my days ... Have been in close contact with my sec school classmate ... They have been a awesome bunch who is always there to disturb me and fool around with me. So sorry my poly friends DEB and mentoring we have been busy with our stuff and we hardly meet up ..'hopefully we will meet up soon ... Miss the great time doing things tgt. Recently have been feeling empty somehow it's the feeling of life is so meaningless ... Now it is even harder to stop thinking about it as there is nth for me to do to keep me busy And prevent me from thinking so much ... There are thing that will not happen and never it will but I just resist to accept the fact about it and trying to think there is still a glimpse of hope left. Know I'm stupid know I'm a stubborn Idiot but well I am born to be who I am and I will just have to learn how to cope with all these things that are happening around me. Hopefully things will change and pray it's for the better ... Now only goal is to pass the coming ippt and secure my sgt rank before I ORD and also to secure my skill allowance to help with the household expanses ... Life what are you , why are you making me go through all these , for my benefit ? For a better future ? Time will tell I guess ... I don't know when I will update this again but for now that's all dwelling on my head , there is more actually but I just do not know how to begin and start ... I shall keep it within and at the bottom of my heart and mind.