有缘无份,相见恨晚

It's being awhile since I update anything here. I Guess this have become the place for me to release my thoughts. I have achieve quite a bit for last 2 years. 1)finished my degree as plan (before 27 year old) 2)having some achievement at work (potentially becoming Assistant manager soon) 3)get assigned to do project based job. 4)met a few more important in my life. I know I shouldn't but somehow I just couldn't get her out of my mind. My mood fluctuate because of her, I need to control myself and get her back to the place and status she should be. I not sure if she will every get to know and found this place, but be it. What I only wish for is for her to be happy, safe and 幸福. I may not be the life partner of you, but I just hope the guy have treated you well. always around for you, please take care and always be happy

Somewhere in my Heart and Mind

No matter what happen, you will always be the family i have. nothing i express how much gratitude i had to you, i just hope one day you would actually understand my intention was just deriving from me keeping you out from things that will not end well. i treasure you like my family member, i just don't want you to end up hurting yourself. it doesn't matter how i will end up, i rather keep things from you to keep you happy than letting you know and you be sad. at the end of the day i guess the only thing i can do for you is to leave and stay away from your life,but i will always be there if you ever need me. i don't know if you will ever find this but i just hope you will understand you will always hold a position within me as a important person in my life journey. Thank you and i really hope you will be happy, please take care of yourself. Hao

Walk Alone

The pain when the person you care and concern for mark you as nonsense and not been subjective

Lost Loss Lose

Good news , tml would be my last paper for the trimester. I am worried and lost now, things changed,people changed, guess i have never learnt lesson on "the only constant is changed". sometimes i just wish i never existed, lesser pain for others, lesser ... trying my best to accept how things have evolve to where they are now, but i guess i have fall back to the pit that i took so long to climbed out from. I'm tired, i wish i could just let go, ignore everything everyone and evaporate away. All these responsibilities is heavy, but it is all the after effect emotions of people that is still around which i couldn't let go. When can i really rest? What is enough? How much is sufficient? Is it really so much to ask to go back to how it was? I really don't know what else i can do. Happy? Really? So much things i wish to say, but i know its not the right time and till the day i guess i just have to keep it with me. How easy to say to let go. WAKE UP Felix! You are all alone by yourself again. Remember to stay this way cause when you get yourself out of the pit again , you never want to go through all these feelings again. I couldn't handle it anymore, I just wish that one day you would know and understand, what i have chose to do the intention is never bad, i might be stupid to do the way i do now but i rather keep things and suffer myself than seeing the people who i care and concern about suffer. Maybe i just bothered too much, maybe one day if you seen this you could tell me ... but i guess maybe not bah... Good night I'll just focus on my paper for tml, now...

Reset of my life

Just when I though I had everything, I had a new person in my life who I can really freely share everything I had, I lost it. Maybe it is just my fate that I have to be alone, time for me to wake up the damn idea. I'm sorry that I had to put you into this state, forgive me you will always hold a important place somewhere in my mind and heart. I really wish I can help you to fulfill your dreams and the unknown thing that you want it to happen. I know you are pissed with me for not telling you, if you really understand me you will know the intention was always taking to you as my priority. I wish I could tell you, but I think it will hurt you more then just being angry with me for whatever silly action that you think I am behaving. I will move on alone and I just hope the future path for you could be a happier and smoother one, if I ever not being able to fulfill my promise to you please forgive me, I just wish I had the fate in our next life if I couldn't.

Maybe

maybe. right person at the wrong time.

It has been a long time since I last update my blog ... Today there is a sudden urge to do it :) ever since the last time I update many things that changes my life have happened. I have already enlisted into national service for almost 8 months .... A good friend Rizuan is going to ORD next week ... So happy for him to regain his freedom all the best in your utter endeavor Wan!. Luckily I have a great partner and bro supporting me in the same vocation Thank you Rahman for going through thick and thin ... 1 year plus more !!! Our junior coming in let's teach him well tgt ... That's for my NS life for now. As for my life ... A few goals in mind but don't know where to begin and where will I end in the future ? 1) a full time job and part time uni when I ORD? 2) what do I want to study in? Be a teacher ? (NIE) Banker ? Back to customer service ? Human resource sector ? 3) time to start and take my driving licenses ? I don't have much time to dwell with do I ? I'm like counting my days ... Have been in close contact with my sec school classmate ... They have been a awesome bunch who is always there to disturb me and fool around with me. So sorry my poly friends DEB and mentoring we have been busy with our stuff and we hardly meet up ..'hopefully we will meet up soon ... Miss the great time doing things tgt. Recently have been feeling empty somehow it's the feeling of life is so meaningless ... Now it is even harder to stop thinking about it as there is nth for me to do to keep me busy And prevent me from thinking so much ... There are thing that will not happen and never it will but I just resist to accept the fact about it and trying to think there is still a glimpse of hope left. Know I'm stupid know I'm a stubborn Idiot but well I am born to be who I am and I will just have to learn how to cope with all these things that are happening around me. Hopefully things will change and pray it's for the better ... Now only goal is to pass the coming ippt and secure my sgt rank before I ORD and also to secure my skill allowance to help with the household expanses ... Life what are you , why are you making me go through all these , for my benefit ? For a better future ? Time will tell I guess ... I don't know when I will update this again but for now that's all dwelling on my head , there is more actually but I just do not know how to begin and start ... I shall keep it within and at the bottom of my heart and mind.

Week 14, 15 & 16...A Sum up for the Whole Experience

Alright… I guess this should be the last post to sum up my attachment at IKEA HR.
Well for the past 4 months… it is not a wonderful experience but also a enjoyable one, I am really thankful to Jazreel, Christina and Poh Yuen for giving me the chance to work with them and really treated me like a colleague rather than a student attachment.
Thank You Jazreel for giving me the chance to experience Human Resource. Thank you for having me in the department, I have always wanted to have a taste of how things work in Human Resource.
Thank you Christina for been a really wonderful “Da Jie” and also a Mentor to me. You have really taught me many things and really I enjoyed all your “Lectures” and also all the small and big talks we have. Thank you for sharing your experience with me and I am really grateful of all the time, effort and very importantly the trust that you have placed on me.
Thank you Poh Yuen for always there to help me out whenever I am caught into problem that I could not handle. Sorry if I have always been a trouble when it comes to my clocking in and out for lunch or for work. Thanks you for sharing with me the processes of recruiting a co-worker to IKEA and also giving me the chance to go through the experience to be a Recruiter in IKEA.
Overall I think it’s not only a meaningful and fruitful experience but I believe the memories that were shared and created during the attachment process will be the most invaluable one. I am really glad that I am able to be attached to IKEA and I hope in the future more people could go through the same form of experience as me and it will definitely be beneficial for the student in the future when they really step out into the working world.

Week 13

Ok ... Haha I guess I am late in reporting in my blog
This week :)

This week it quite interesting I was invited to sit in te caalg
Drop meeting where I know better about the theme of the up coming catalog. Really impress with the showroom design and also not forgetting the new product that will be out ... Looking forward
To all those new furnitures !!!

Sign off
Weihao

week 12

wooo....It been a busy week.... Ok maybe not that busy... manage to meet up with the LO last week...and updated him about the report that i have done for IKEA... Mr Lee is kind enough to guide me through on how i should improve on my report to make it stand out when i submit to the school. Will be working on the report for the school while preparing the presentation that will be made to the HR managers and the executive.

A bit more to go and the last lap will be complete.

Sign off

Weihao